Hiatus

Due to a sudden death in my family, I'm going to take a break from blogging. I'm not sure how long. I need time to wrap my head around the loss and make arrangements.

I hope you understand.

- Petra



UPDATED (May 2, 2012):

Thank you so much for all the condolences and kind words. It was a nice surprise when I logged back in to read them.

The death of my grandfather was very sudden. Apart from the aches that come with age, he was healthy and would have turned 84 this summer. He and my grandmother were married for 61 years. "My diamond bride," is what he called her since their diamond anniversary last year. I've never been around one grandparent without the other being near by—they were inseparable and very happy. I've read a lot of books where the love was instantaneous and would sometimes comment about how believable it really was since that not something that happens in reality, but my grandparents are the perfect example that it is possible. They met in 1948 while my grandmother was leaning out and cleaning the windows at home and my grandfather was walking down the road on a lunch break from work. They both told me numerous times—once they saw each other, their breaths caught and they knew.

I'll miss my grandfather's jokes and him telling me to eat a little more no matter how much I ate so I'd grow up to be big and strong like he did when I was a child and up to the last time time we ate together—even though I've grown as much as I'm going to :-)

I'll miss his stories—the funny ones, the ones that show how charming he was and the ones about the tough times in Germany and what they had to go through that show me how lucky I am to have grown up in a way that was normal for me, but a real privilege in comparison.

My grandfather and I shared a common interest in the history of our family. He was able to track our family all the back to the 1600s, but their was one thing in particular he really wanted to know. There is a town that has the same name as our family and he's always wanted to know whether it was a coincidence or if there was a connection. Not long before his death, I found the information he wanted. He was so excited to finally know and I think it would have always bothered me if I hadn't gotten him that information in time.

I don't think it's really hit home yet. There were a few times in the beginning when it almost did, but there were things that needed to be done—the most important of which was to make sure my grandmother was OK and help her deal with everything any way I could. She handled everything better than I would in her position and instead of thinking about what she's lost, she concentrates on the 61 years they had together that most don't get.

17 comments:

  1. I'm so sad to hear this, Petra! Take as much time as you need. <3 you

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  2. I'm so, so sorry.
    Take all the time you need.

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  3. All my condoleances

    take the time you need, don't worry about us

    my prayers go with you and your loved ones

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  4. So sorry for your loss. Take all the time you need and know that our prayers are with you and your family. Wishing you peace, comfort, and blessings during this time.

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  5. My thoughts are with you and your loved ones.

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  6. I definitely understand, Petra. I'm thinking of you.

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  7. Of course we understand. I'm so sorry for your loss.

    <3

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  8. Have you in my thoughts and prayers, Petra!

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  9. I'm so sorry. I wish you a lot of strength to go through these sad times!

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  10. I'm so sorry for your loss.
    all the best

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  11. Im so sorry to hear about this. My thoughts are with you at this sad time. xx

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  12. Really sorry to hear your sad news. Take care of yourself. Prayers and hugs x

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  13. I'm very late to comment, but I still want to say that my thoughts are with you. That's sad news. I wish you all strength and that you and your family can only grow stronger together out of this terrible loss. I'm very close to my family and I don't want to imagine loosing one of my beloved:(
    x

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  14. So sorry Petra. You'll be in my thoughts. Wishing you well.

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  15. I'm so sorry. :( I know how it feels. My grandfather died a few years ago and he was also almost 84. He told me many stories as well, especially those from the sad WW2 times. And his relationship with my grandmother was beautiful. When he died my grandmother took it bravely just as yours. Now she is getting worse too and I'm afraid...
    Even though I see death as a normal part of life, it is painful when a member of your family dies, especially when you really love them.

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